(Perhaps) The Happiest Place on Earth

Sunday, October 30, 2016


Perhaps the happiest place on earth is not really a place: physically, structurally, constructively. It's a state of mind. Whether you embrace it or not. Whether you stick to it or not. Whether you cling on it or not.
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My visual thesis defence day just got postponed to next Friday from Tuesday, due to a reason. Maybe it's a bad thing for me, because: 1) I can't stand waiting with all of these uncertainties, and insecurity. I just want it to be done and let all of these weights on my shoulder to begone. 2) I recently booked plane tickets and room reservation for my upcoming trip (and final exhibition preparation) to Yogyakarta, which I unfortunately decide to leave on next Wednesday. Since the thesis defence is on a Friday, I should wave my goodbyes to all those tickets.

In the other hand, it's a good thing, because: 1) I can spark up my thesis writing. Or maybe add some few other things in my progress book. I honestly didn't spend that much time with my thesis writing, instead I put too much efforts in the visual works. I can feel that the divine deity gave me the chance to do some more efforts in my writing. 2) I can do some petty preparations for the presentation, maybe?
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In the end, she chooses to believe that all things happen for some good yet unpredictable reasons and be happy; Creating the state of mind, or perhaps creating the happiest place on earth.
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Photos are taken at Tokyo DisneySea, Japan, on July 2016.
All images © 2013-2016 Claudia Novreica


Delirium

Sunday, October 23, 2016


It's one week to the visual thesis defence. Yes, only a week left for me to prepare all the things necessary. Instead, I write a blog post (which isn't surprising; it's the thing I always do when it comes to dealing with upcoming deadlines) *smirk*.

I can't feel anything. I feel numb. These past two months of final project execution has turned me into a robot that also in need of good foods and sleep. I turned into a hermit; someone who never intend to leave his nesting place. Someone who's constantly philosophise; concerning whys and hows. The one who doesn't give any damn about currents. A hikikomori for good causes.

In other ways, I feel everything. I feel every complex processes of the universe inside of me. I feel nauseous by thinking of every single chances that might happen on the d-day. I feel insecure about my work, because I'm pretty sure I could've make it better. I feel so restless, in spite of amount of sleep hours I obtain every nights. I feel elated, knowing I'm coming to the end of my university life. I feel every single things.

Perhaps this is that another weird, yet familiar paradox that I usually encounter in my life. Something that's confusing, but I can truly understand. An enemy, yet a best friend. I've been in too many paradoxes, enantiosemy, antilogy, addad, and I'm sure this too shall pass.
  

Anyways, whenever I feel unmotivated to do anything, I look on my past travel shots. It reminds me to break a freaking leg and try to ace everything I'm doing. Seriously, I can't wait for another trips. Another surprises. Another breakthroughs. Another earthshaking movements. Plus, I miss my times in Hogwarts already. Sigh.

All is well. All is well. All is well.
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Photos are taken at Universal Studios Japan, Osaka, Japan on July 2016.
All images © 2013-2016 Claudia Novreica

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